It is a strange sort of pain "to die of yearning for something you'll never experience"

Saturday, November 30, 2002



عجب ماجرای چسبناکی این فارسی نوشتن
دقیقا" احساس میکنم که افتاده ام توی یه ظرف پر از چسب

Friday, November 29, 2002

it doesn't matter if i wait endlessly for him to call
it doesn't matter if i wait endlessly for him to write a letter
it doesn't matter if i wait endlessly for him to show up here
it doesn't matter if i wait endlessly for him to say "i love you "
because
he never makes that call
he never writes that letter
he never comes here
and he never says "i love you"
but
i will wait endlessly for that call
i will wait endlessly for that letter
i will wait endlessly for him to come
i will wait endlessly to hear him say "i love you"
if we were our bodies
if we were our futures
if we were our defenses i'd be joining you
if we were our culture
if we were our leaders
if we were our denials i'd be joining you
( a m )
don't disturb me
please leave me purgatorying...
i don't care if monday's blue
tuesday's grey and wednesday too
thursday i don't care about you
it's friday i'm in love

monday you can fall apart
tuesday wednesday break my heart
thursday doesn't even start
it's friday i'm in love

saturday wait
and sunday always comes too late
but friday never hesitate...

i don't care if monday's black
tuesday wednesday heart attack
thursday never looking back
it's friday i'm in love

monday you can hold your head
tuesday wednesday stay in bed
or thursday watch the walls instead
it's friday i'm in love
( the cure)

ain't it friday?

Thursday, November 28, 2002

" i knew i loved you before i met you"
and so i did after!
maybe its intuition!
...And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive...
carpe diem..........
means sieze the day,
means do not go on pretending what you are not and what you don't wanna be,
means live every breath
means break free
means exactly what you make it to mean
so,
carpe diem...
------
let's hope it's not too late.

Wednesday, November 27, 2002

...If it weren't for your maturity none of this would have happened
If you weren't so wise beyond your years I would've been able to control myself
If it weren't for my attention you wouldn't have been successful and
If it weren't for me you would never have amounted to very much......(a m)



maturity.....!!!!


Shall i compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possesion of that fair thou owest;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st:
So long as man can breathe,or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

sonnet no.18 William Shakespeare

Monday, November 25, 2002

Did you like the song? i like the last part which says:

I don't think you unworthy
I need a moment to deliberate

cuz i've felt that moment myself!.it may help you stay with the one you love,it may ruin it all, or it may make it worse.but, try not to leave any regrets. belive me.now, i have to live with my regrets, and it hurts...
hi!
well, sooner or later anybody would realize my being a "junkie" to all that relates to Alanis morissette.so,why do i have to let it linger on?
here's one of my fave songs of hers,enjoy.

Uninvited

Like anyone would be
I am flattered by your fascination with me
Like any hot blooded woman
I have simply wanted an object to crave
But you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm
Must be somewhat heartening
To watch shepard meet shepard
But you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Like any uncharted territory
I must seem greatly intriguing
You speak of my love like
You have experienced like mine before
But this is not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

I don't think you unworthy
I need a moment to deliberate

Sunday, November 24, 2002

Today is sunday, my first day of having a weblog, it reminds me of a song by "U2", named:"Sunday,Bloody sunday.well, surly i've had many so-called "great" sundays,but there's always something missing in it,may be some kinda divinity.maybe God gives mostly all of his attention to christians on sundays...kinda funny, i know,but what is serious?i wish there would be a day in which i could feel that thing called Divinity..or maybe i should-like Alanis says-remember my own divinity?

how 'bout no longer being masochistic
how 'bout remembering your divinity
how 'bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out
how 'bout not equating death with stopping
("thank you" by Alanis morissette)

check her here: www.alanismorissette.com
i'm trying to understand how this thing works, and when i do,i'm gonna take a deep breath and write something worth reading.
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