It is a strange sort of pain "to die of yearning for something you'll never experience"

Thursday, March 27, 2003

خسته ام...
از این بهار لعنتی که حالا حالا ها تموم نمیشه...
از این کیبورد لعنتی ...
از این اکانت لعنتی...
از خود لعنتیم...
از تو...
لعنت به تو که حتی نمیتونم بهت بگم لعنتی!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, March 25, 2003

ok,don't shout, i know. i have a high ability to be a everything, i know....but just look at him...cute!!!!!!!!!

look guys,if you know somebody half like him let me know!!!

Monday, March 24, 2003


Friday, March 21, 2003

That I Would Be Good

that I would be good even if i did nothing
that I would be good even if i got the thumbs down
that I would be good if I got and stayed sick
that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

that i would be fine even even if I went bankrupt
that i would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
that i would be great if I was no longer queen
that i would be grand if i was not all knowing

that i would be loved even when i numb myself
that i would be good even when i am overwhelmed
that i would be loved even when i was fuming
that i would be good even if i was clingy

that i would be good even if i lost sanity
that i would be good
whether with or without you
(A, as usual!)
That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it

Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

Thursday, March 20, 2003


Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear.
And I can't help but ask myself how much I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer.
It's driven me before, and it seems to have a vague, haunting mass appeal.
But lately I am beginning to find out that I should be the one behind the wheel.

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there with open arms and open eyes.

So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive?
It's driven me before and it seems to be the way that everyone else gets around.
But lately I'm beginning to find that when I drive myself my light is found.

So whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there with open arms and open eyes.
Would you kill the Queen to crush the hive?
Would you choose water over wine.... hold the wheel and drive?

دلم می خواد دور بشم....دور..دور...دور...

Tuesday, March 18, 2003

a girl did die
S,she bought me an apple pie
sometimes i cry
and you seem to be sly
in a way that gets me high
and some people lie
cuz they're afraid and shy
to face the world which is dry
and maybe she should gives it a try
and i die to ask him why?
in my fortune,there you lie
which cosmetics do you apply?
do you know how to fly?
do you want me to....
hey slut,at least you could say bye!
written by me,being tierd and needing company.wishing no one would hang up on me!

Monday, March 17, 2003

feel impressed?
what the hell does that suppose to mean anyway?
a guy comes to you in a party.and he goes like:hey! i'm Mr.well-known Sombody,who r u?
and you go like: i am me,nice to meet you.
and he goes like:look i have a degree in the field of Fame and i work at the company of Mr.famouse
and you go like:so?
and he goes like:well, he's the most famouse pal in the country in that field
and you go like:so?
and he says(with a great excitment in his head moving, which means:aren't you impressed?):so? is that all you can say?
and you reply:well, you don't expect me to jump and cheer for you,do you?all i can say is that,be happy in life and be successfull...and you think: impressed! paH, that's somebody else not you pal, you just play around there...

and after rejecting his proposal.the noble Mr.well-known drinks to his ears and then throws up on th dance floor,blaming you!
and later you think to yourself:what the hell, world's full of these pure types of A-wholes trying to impress others with their self-absorbed pethatic character..
and then..there comes the fear..the doubt.."am i on of those?"..."have i been joining the A-whole culb unconsciously?"... i going mad?
look pals,there are to many "and"s,right?

Monday, March 10, 2003

Do I stress you out ???

Sunday, March 09, 2003

To whom do I owe the biggest apology?
No one’s been crueler than I’ve been to me

Monday, March 03, 2003

"To be, or not to be: that is the question.
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles.
And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep:
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heartache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, -- 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub:
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come?"

William shakespeare

Sunday, March 02, 2003

i've missed my hair!

Saturday, March 01, 2003

don't forget to read the Photographer's Comment..