well,couple of month ago i used to think that there must be some way to make it right.
several hours and several days went by and i was just there looking at my life and counting minutes that were filled with regret.
there was only one thing in my mind:"i gotta do something, i gotta take F back, i gotta.."

it took me more than 4 month to realize what has happened..what has been changed in me.
that was me,shaking in my shoes..for fear of losing F...not only F but anybody whom i get involve with..
fear of loving and being loved...fear of bliss(like A says)
and now i feel better cuz now i know what was missed in me...